As I came out of the university and made my first couple of years in the corporate world I was increasingly satisfied and fulfilled with my work. I woke up every morning feeling energized and eager to get started on the tasks at hand. I was clearly being busy and feeling important.
As the years went by the amounts of meetings, emails and time-reporting increased and as a consequence I started feeling more restless. Don’t get me wrong – I was still busy and doing my best in most situations.
But the traditional economy changed during those years and I found myself
- commuting for hours every day
- being in (what suddenly seemed) pointless back-to-back meetings
- and sitting or standing in front of my computer at the office working away more or less unimportant emails
Busy being busy
You can probably tell by now that my motivation was at a real low level water mark. A growing impatience rose within me and I couldn’t stop it – not even with therapy. I was now busy being busy and not feeling important at all at work. Was I burnt out? Maybe. Was I depressed? Maybe. Hard to tell. I just knew I wasn’t happy.
Had the importance of my work diminished? Probably not – I wasn’t less important to the company in those days than before. But my values had changed. Why? Having a family changed my view on importance. I was still important to the company I was with, my colleagues and our customers. But really that was NOTHING compared to the importance of being a mother to my two little ones. NOTHING I tell you.
My view on what’s important in life changed and with it came a growing panic of being trapped in a hamster wheel.
The combination of wanting to spend much more time with my family and the increasing feeling of un-fulfillment eventually made me realize I had to get out. Away from
- the constraints of an employment
- the feeling of being tied down
- and the stupidity (yes, sorry, that’s what I felt) of commuting. Busy being busy.
So I got out
It’s been quite a journey since then, which I’ll tell you more about it later. I was scarred of failure, of putting myself in debt, of causing trouble for my loved ones. Feels to recognize, and we’ll talk mor about those later.
NOW I wake up every morning excited about the day ahead, knowing I’m being busy inspiring and helping people lead more fulfilling lives. I’m busy with things that I love and I feel very important.
And I spend WHAT EVER time I like with my family.
How about YOU?
How are YOU feeling? Are you busy and important? Or are you in the same or a similar position that I was in, feeling un-fulfilled, busy being busy and not being able to spend your valuable time on the real important stuff in life? If that’s the case, I’m sorry, but know this – there are other options. You don’t have to feel this way!
Btw, the “busy being busy” I picked up from one of my favorite leadership gurus Robin Sharma. Love his inspirational books and quotes!
All the best and talk soon!